I'll be Back in 2012.

promise.

Wait...Really?

Know what scares the crap out of me?

Excess skin.

The woman in the picture above lost 140 pounds and now has this extra skin.

It makes me, sometimes, wonder if it's even worth it.

But on the other hand...even if I have extra skin, I'll still be a whole of a hell lot healthier.

If At First You Don't Succeed.....

Try....Try....AGAIN.

Okay.

So, here we go again.

I'm coming back with a whole new perspective on things.

When I first started this blog I set some pretty major goals. And all I could focus on was the big picture. And in doing so I lost sight of the little things.

If I slipped and ate something I shouldn't have, or had some soda, or didn't exercise, I would feel totally defeated and eat more, or just pout about not exercising instead of just getting up and doing it.

It's about baby steps.

And remembering that when I slip up, we just move on and try again.

So here we are. Trying again. I'm wiping out the weigh-ins on the sidebar and starting fresh.

Baby Steps.

I can do this.......I know I can.

Only One I Have To Apologize To Is Myself.

Maybe my lot in life is to be the 700 pound woman that has to be cut out her house and taken to the hospital on the back of a flatbed truck. Yelling at the driver to stop at KFC as we pass.

No?

Well if I keep it up, that's going to be me.

I started this blog with so much energy and motivation.

And if you take a peek at my numbers to the right you will see, I've lost NOTHING.

Not One Single Pound.

Oh, I lost five.

But then I got a cold. And gained it right back. I've been over my cold for a week now. And still those five pounds remain.

My knees hurt.

I can't keep up with Blythe.

I have a closet full of lovely clothes that I can't wear.

I'm out of breath just going up the stairs.

I don't sleep well.

Why am I doing this to myself?!?!

So this week, the goal is exercise 20 min everyday.

At least 1 more serving of fruit and veggie's a day.

And NO soda.

Ya I gave up the Diet Coke.

But that Kiwi Strawberry Shasta calls to me.

Beh. This is hard. It's seriously a struggle EVERY SINGLE DAY.

It will be worth it right?

I think so.

Being Sneaky.

So with the changes I'm attempting to make in our home, comes healthy eating. And let me tell you, with Blythe, it's been tricky! She wants nothing to do with veggies and most fruits. I've had this book for awhile and never really used to, so this past week I pulled it out, dusted it off, and cracked her open! It's full of all sorts of recipes for things kids already love, but are packed full of the good things that she won't eat.

We'll see what happens.

I hope these dang colds go away soon so I can get back to business in the exercise department!

Ignorance.

Sorry about the lack of posts. I've been fighting a bad cold which means I got lazy, and the pounds I lost are back. Yay.

So one evening last week Blythe broke out in an awful rash and after Benadryl and a bath, it was just getting worse so we headed to Instacare. They got us back right away and took her vitals including her weight and the also measured her height.

The doctor came in and looked her over and determined that it was an allergic reaction, and she gave us some cream and Zyrtec and told us just to watch it.

As we got ready to leave the doctor took another peak at her height and weight that the nurse and written down on the chart. She calmly said to me that she was a little concerned because Blythe's measurements fell into the "obese" category.

It was like someone sucked the air out of my lungs.

And then it really hit me. My bad habits have rubbed off on Blythe and it shows. She is overweight for her age. And she eats what I eat, which hasn't been the best. And I haven't been very active which in turns means, neither has she.

I feel so guilty.

But all I can do now is go forward.

Big changes in the Morrill home.